So this week I was all set to go off to Wales on holiday but, due to unforeseen circumstances, it had to be cancelled at the last minute. As someone who likes to be in control and have a plan, I have to admit it threw me. Planning is my forte, I’m well known for it, I love planning my week and even when on holiday, I like to plan what we are going to do each day. Now what was I going to do with all this spare time that needed filling?
I spent Monday morning twiddling my thumbs and looking out my study window wondering what to do. With the oppressive heat I wasn’t motivated to do any gardening (not sure I have the green fingers to retrieve my wilting flowers anyway!), neither was I inclined to do the housework. Starting my assignment for my latest qualification didn’t instil me with excitement – after all, I was meant to be away enjoying myself this week.
So I decided to flick through Facebook/Instagram in the hope of catching up on something interesting, but knowing that it would probably be the case of seeing photos of what friends had for dinner last night and other friends sharing photos of their wonderful holidays somewhere hot and sunny.
I do however have a friend who I admire, she seems to be able to make the most of each day and has achieved so much in her life – and yes I am a little bit envious as well. She’s far too busy to post updates on Facebook very regularly, but when she does, it’s full of the things she’s done (not in a showy-off way but in a newsy way). As I was looking at her latest update, I thought what would she have done if she was is in my position and then it hit me, she embraces change, she has had lots thrown at her over the last few years, where due to family issues and work commitments she has had to change her plans at the last minute, but she just adapts and still manages to make the most of each day.
Could I do this? Rather than just sitting wondering what to do this week and formulating a plan, what if I just took each day at a time and make a commitment to myself not to sit around all week thinking about making one! So that day I started my assignment, took myself shopping, caught up with friends that I haven’t spoken to for months and made my hubby and me a nice dinner.
That night before bed I reflected how the day had gone, I felt that it had gone much better than I expected and a little bit of me was happy that it had been made with spur of the moment decisions. I was excited about what I could do the following day and almost reached for my To Do pad to scribble my plans then stopped myself, remembering this week is about spur of the moment stuff. Could I complete the week continuing to push myself out of my comfort zone and not make any firm plans and going with the flow?
The answer was yes I did and I feel so much more liberated for it, it’s made me realise that I can live in the moment and don’t always need a plan to get through life. Of course, planning can be good and is sometimes essential, after all, we can’t go through life, changing appointments or putting off completing necessary jobs etc just because we feel like it, but I’ve realised it can be stifling and we can be left disappointed if it doesn’t work out.
I am a great believer that things happen for a reason although I was willing to make an exception to this belief that at the beginning of this week! However sitting here on Friday reflecting on what I have achieved through practically no planning, I’m impressed. I will always be a planner, it’s in my nature but I have learnt that it’s ok for me to occasionally not have a plan and go with the flow and actually it feels good. So what am I doing this weekend? I haven’t got a clue!